It's interesting how things happen in your life, and they make you reevaluate many aspects in your life. That has been this kind of week. I have been looking at the past decade or so and seeing where I have come from and where I have been. What has changed in me that I like and what I don't like. What has happened that I never expected and could I have changed the course of events. I look back at that eighteen year old...full of promise, off to college, ready to conquer the world...and now at age 34 with five kids, homeschooling, staying at home...am I still ready to conquer the world? I am not sure if I can answer that in a positive manner. I am in a weird place...I think I have been in this funk since the new year. I guess I am at this point where I am looking up and seeing what needs to be changed...and yes, it may hurt and not feel comfortable...but it is needed.
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