Today is the day

So today is the day. A long time desire is going to be fulfilled and it is only God who is allowing it to happen. Today I start my training as a birth doula at our local college. So, first, what is a doula? Is that what you are thinking? I am sure. Most people ask. It is a person who comes into a women's birth and supports her to have the most natural birth and to meet her expectations for her birth. Kind of like a coach, but not really. You are there to support mom, husband and baby. You are there for them to meet the goals and expectations for their birth.
I wanted to do this years ago, but it just wasn't the right time. But now we are coming to a new place as a family where I can leave for a few minutes. It's a nice place. And yes, my first priority is my husband (who is fully supportive), my children, my home. But at the same time I am falling into place to where God wants me. It is exciting to see where he will take me. I love working with women, and babies. It is my life passion. You know when you get to that place where you know you fit...that's where I am. I am so thankful to God for opening up these strategic doors.
The most amazing thing about this, is that if you knew me 20 years ago...fifteen years ago...you would not know me. Never would have I thought I would do this. Never did I think I would be a lactation counselor. I didn't even breastfeed my first baby. But now, because of allowing God to mold me, change me and heal me of past hurts I am becoming who he wants. I still have a long way to go, but I am moving in that direction. It's exciting. And let me tell you, it is a struggle to not allow those old thoughts, and garbage to rise up in me. That old person was molded by the world, not by the Lord. So, he takes one layer off at a time. Peeling away. Loving totally and unconditionally. It's beautiful.
I will keep you updated. So excited. God is so good!